Monday, October 5, 2009

So hard

Life is tough right now. I have too many responsibilities, too many dreams. I'm not sure which one will come out ahead in the end. Probably the responsibilities, or in other words, my day job. Miss Callie stopped sleeping well a while ago, and it is tough to rationalize anything on a brain that is sleep deprived. I go to bed after 11:00 and I'm up several times before getting up at 5:30 for good.
But at least Kevin is home, even though that home is cluttered and not fit for company.
In any case, I caught the moon tonight. Check out the craters!!




And yesterday found us at the Apple Works, though I failed to get a decent photo of all four together. I"ll try again later in the fall, and bribe the kids with candy or cookies :)




I wasn't meant to crunch numbers. I wasn't meant to give presentations. I know that with everything that is within me. But for now, I need to help pay the bills, and that is the only way I can do that reliably. In the meantime, I'll hold onto my dreams, and try to get some sleep :)

4 comments:

Mrs. Staff Sergeant: said...

Oh, the sleep is so important an everything seems that much more frustrating without it!

I really hope you're able to realize your dreams one day soon Mindi. You have such amazing talent, I cannot imagine it not happening for you!

I have to add- wow, your older 3 are getting so tall! Such a cute picture of the 3 of them together :)

Monica said...

I feel your pain. Came home last night from work and asked the same question, "Why am I doing this again?" Oh, yeah, the family needs to eat:)

I'll be praying alongside you.

Donna said...

Hold on tight Mindi...People like you deserve all the happiness in the world...And it will come!! Xx

Ginger@From The Cocoon said...

I too, feel your pain. Q is home for his last 5 days and our house is a disaster...sleep deprivation & overwhelming schedules have taken over...I sit at my desk all day thinking, "what if I just walk out?" and like you and others, I remember..."oh yea..bills."

Wishing and praying that both of us find our dreams a reality! And until then, God grants us peace in our circumstances.

Great pictures! I can just see the personality in each child...and the moon! How did you do that?!